i keep falling back asleep but i get so comfy also i’ve dreamed every time and there’s been butterfly in call of them the first one there was a kid with a big butterfly on his shirt like that tiktok i sent a few days ago the second time it was me in a classroom i think it was some after school thing but i didn’t want to be there i was trying to stay away from going home then i snuck out of the the group and was walking back to the room because we were in the auditorium and they were having a butterfly exhibit thing i guess where i was getting ready to leave and then i was getting my backpack which also has butterflies on it but i was scared of butterflies in my dream idk i think i’m kinda scared of butterflies to an extent but in my dream i was freaking out because for the exibxit they let out a ton of butterflies in the classroom and i balled up next to a pillar and hid under my backpack which i also had another backpack without butterflies on it and there was one other person with me that i guess followed me and they were also next to the pillar and i was cowering down i opened the backpack and covered my head up with it and i saw them look at me confused because i was scared of butterflies but the backpack i had was a butterfly patterned backpack then the third dream was me in at some i think it was a job fair of some kind also my nana was in my dream and my mom was too but she was distant the whole time so i didn’t really see her but once when i ran into this guy named alex (a tiktoker that is also trans) he was touring and was in a trucker hat and had a disguise on so nobody would clock him for being trans i walked up to him and said hey and asked for a picture but my mom and steve were also both there walking behind me when i ran into him and so when i was going to tell him my name is carson i’ve followed you for a while all of that food stuff i couldn’t bring myself to say carson because my mom and steve were both there which is weird because they both know i go by carson and i didn’t introduce alex to them because i was scared they would be like (oh he’s trans too but not in a accepting way - i have no idea what was going on in that dream at all but it was so wack) also i don’t think i got the picture of me and alex and i walked away from him like damn i really blew it he probably thinks i’m an asshole or something also the job fair thing where my nana came into the picture (she passed away a few months ago and this is the first time she’s been in my dream since then and i can’t really remember a dream she was in before she passed away which is wild) i was talking to her about a job application and it was on where you have to do the little tests but since on indeed it has you so certain text that go with that bob when i was looking through the ones i needed to do i was missing some so then i walked along this line of “tests” but it was just little clay mold things that you would put a ball on and see if the ball made it all the way through the obstacle some of them looked like little roller coasters but i was going through counting how many i had to do and then when i looped back around to walk towards the first one i had to do that’s when i ran into alex also at one point me and my mom were both in my dorm she was taking a nap on the other bed or trying to and wanted something on the tv but it was not working so i pulled up tiktok on my phone and i guess linked it to my tv so she could see my for you page then it was just a lot of my drafts and videos that were popping up and literally all of them i didn’t have a shirt on or i was taping and she wasn’t saying anything about it she was just quiet and i was frantically trying to get it off to my normal fyp but it was set up different on the tv
This dream appears to be a combination of various elements and themes. Falling back asleep signifies a desire for comfort and relaxation in your waking life. The presence of butterflies in each dream symbolizes transformation, growth, and freedom. The first dream with the kid wearing a butterfly shirt suggests that you may have recently been exposed to new ideas or influences. Your fear of butterflies in the second dream may represent a fear of change or the unknown. It could also indicate that you feel vulnerable or overwhelmed in certain situations. The presence of the pillar and hiding under the backpack suggests a desire for protection and security.
The third dream involving a job fair and your late nana symbolizes new opportunities and the pursuit of personal growth. Your interaction with Alex, a trans TikToker, may indicate your admiration for their journey and your own desire for self-expression. Your hesitation to openly share your name and identity with your mom and Steve suggests internal conflicts or concerns about acceptance. The job application tests represent challenges or obstacles you may be facing in your waking life, while the clay mold obstacles suggest creativity and problem-solving.
The scene in your dorm room with your mom and the TV symbolizes a desire for connection and understanding. Your mom's silence during the TikTok videos may imply a lack of communication or discomfort in expressing your true self around her. Your frantic efforts to change your "For You" page on TikTok may reflect a desire to project a certain image or to be perceived in a particular way by others.
Overall, this dream seems to reflect your emotional state and desires, including the need for comfort, transformation, self-expression, acceptance, and the pursuit of new opportunities. It may be helpful to reflect on these aspects of your life and consider how you can work towards fulfilling these desires in your waking life.